He is Strong in my Weakness

Hey Friends!
Sorry that this has turned into a choppy and drawn out story, but I will finally finsh telling about Nicaragua. Theen I will tell you a bit about what I have been up to lately!
At the hospital, the whole group went to the children's wing together and visited with the kids and thier parents. It was so hard to see kids that are so little being so sick and then not know if thier parents will continue to have the money for their child's needs to be met. We spent alot of time with them talking, praying, and playing with the kids and they seems very encouraged that were were there. I love being with the kids because they are so easy to communicate with. I just have to smile at them or hold them or maybe play a little game amd all the sudden we are friends. We dedcided to do that same drama we had done for the school earlier that morning for the kids in the hospital and their parents. Everyone laughed and the mood in the room was totally transformed for what it was when we first walked in. What I came to realize through my experience at the hospital is that even if I don't have the words to bring some grand message to the people, when I am loving them by just being there for them and serving them in the little ways that I can, I am really blessing them and giving them hope. That is the truly message I have to give: I am here because Jesus has given me a new hope and you can have that hope too.
Well lets fast forward a few weeks to where I am, here and now. As you read in my previous blogs, in the first half or my Discipleship Training School I was just completely falling head-over-heals in love with God! And do you know what?... I still am! The difference now is that he has been teaching me about commitment to him; that feelings won't be there all the time, but I still need to put him first no matter what and be committed to him in everything because we have made a covanant togehter. It is so good that he is teching me this now because right as he began telling me that, times got to be much more difficult. My feet hit the ground and circumstance after circumstance kept running in to me, trying to knock me down. This I how I learning to cling to my Rock who can never be shaken. There were definately times when I was so angry and tired that I just wanted to forget it all, but this his how God has been able to show me how he has been transforming my heart: instead of just keeping all these things inside, trying to handle them on my own strength I just ran to him and gave it all over. At times I just has to screem at him asking "why?", at times I just had to cry at his feet, and every time I just had to surrender every situation and everything inside of me over to him. He has been faithful to show me more and more of who he is and what he is like in these times and that is how I am able to say, "Not on my own strength, but in yours. In my weekness your power is made perfect. Your love never fails!" In learing to be open with God, who is my very best friend, I have also been learing to be more open with others. I really did take fist coming to him, laying down my pride, and knowing his faithfulness that I have been able to even learn what it means to be open in order to open up to others more. I have been able to come to my friends in humility and say "Hey, I'm having a really hard time. This is what's goign on, and this is how I feel". God is so good! I have been covered in prayer and encouragement and have just been overwhelmed by the love that others have shown me!